Days 10, 11, 12: Christ almighty.

Where to begin? I have literally been sitting here for ten minutes trying to figure out what to say. On Friday, we went to Target and I didn’t give the cashier the right amount of money. That really bothered me. I counted and could have sworn I counted correctly but I gave too much. We went to the grocery store on Saturday and I had some difficulty holding thoughts of what else we needed.

My mom and I took the kids to the mall on Sunday. We went to the Lego store. I love Legos. I really do. Putting them together is a lot of fun. There is something about building, creating, and seeing something come to fruition right before your eyes that has a magical quality to it… Especially when you can say, “Hey, *I* did that.” Kaylee, of course, was overstimulated as soon as we walked in the door, but I got to her calm down a wee bit so we could make a selection.

I had difficulty falling asleep last night. Handing over STM is one of the toughest decisions I have had to make, but that is part of progress and life in general. Similarly to Legos, it has been awesome to build, create, and see the event come to fruition. The time has come for me to take a step back in order to allow it to grow and for me to remain sane. God help me when it comes time for the kids to move on in their lives. I’ll probably have a heart attack.

I have started to feel like a burden. I’m wondering if it’s the med change.

Time to get started on today. Better late than never.


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